Sometimes our "perfect" isn't as perfect as we thought, and sometimes what we want isn't necessarily what we need.
It has taken me a while to write this blog. One, because I didn't know what to say or how I wanted to say it. Two, because I have needed a few days to ride out this roller coaster of emotions (sadness, humiliation, anger, bitterness, defeat, etc). I wasn't going to post anything, but this is a blog and for some of you reading that might do travel nursing, I wouldn't be heaping you any if I didn't tell you the true story.
All that being said, my contract at UCLA ended. I'm not going to go into the details of things but it wasn't a good fit, and that's that.
I have accepted another contract at a hospital located in Harbor City, a little south of LA and will be here until the end of May. I could write about what happened or what I think about things, but I have taken a different attitude for this one, what's done is done and all I can do is have a positive outlook for the next assignment.
It's so easy to get caught up in the "what ifs" and "buts" when really what we should be doing is asking ourselves "what did I learn?" and "what's next". Let's just add this to one more obstacle that I have had to over come on this journey. I sure am getting the "full" travel nurse experience... good and bad!
Over the past few days, I have really taken into consideration what my goals are in life and what I truly see myself doing down the road. Although I have always seen myself being a nurse and I feel as if my passion is in women's health, maybe it's not for me, or maybe it's not for me right now. Don't jump the gun just yet, I'm not quitting my nursing career... only keeping my options open. I have always had an interest in doing hair and make up, and have looked into cosmetology school several times. I was usually doing a friend's hair for prom and have done make up for a friend's wedding. Something about the creativity and making someone feel their best.. I love it. Maybe since I'm out here in LA, why not give acting a shot like the rest of this city? I could end up on some commercial or in a TV show.. how cool would that be?! Since the Kardashians made "baby nurses" cool, I could be a live in nanny for a celebrity after their baby is born (yes it's a real thing, and yes, I have considered it). Who knows where I will actually end up, but this journey has helped me to see the endless possibilities in life. For now, I'm sticking to this nursing gig. If something comes up on the side we will see where that adventure takes me, but I have set out to do something and I am not one to leave tasks unfinished.
I am so thankful for my supportive family that has had to deal with a lot of ups and downs from me in the past couple of months. I promise I didn't make this crazy move to deal with all of this. Craig, thank you for spending extra time with me this week and always putting me in a better mood. Jillian, thank you for the endless hugs and for always being available for a sweet treat. You all have put up with my wildest dreams, but that's what friends and family are for... right?
In the mean time, I have spent a few days by the pool, the stairs (I'm up to 10 rounds), and Runyon Canyon. There is never truly a dull moment out here! I am loving the weather, the people, and everything this city has to offer!
Thanks for readin', love y'all!!
xoxo
Hadley
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